trueyouandmixemotions

How can I start this? Is it in a simple how-are-you’s? Is it in a simple what-are-you-doing-right-now’s? It is like so simple and boring to say those kinds of phrases again and again. But, let us change the format on how I can start my greetings.Why am I still alive until today? Is my life destined to a slave of those who have a higher authority? Calling me names because they want too? Do they treat me like a toy? Like a doll of a little girl? I can’t take these kinds of bullying. You know why? It really hurts deep inside my heart. This is not a joke or any kind of boring activity. This is only I can say to all of you, “Let we be freed from the cage of discrimination. We need space to know and get to know what and who we are.

Many of us want to know our real identity and sometimes they are hindrances that deter us from pursuing our goals. We want to express our feelings, wants, and aspirations. We may be different and confused about our sex but we are still humans.

In the times of our ancestors, they said that we were bad influence, we were cursed, we were called demons. But let us change the time circuits into the present time. We are famous. We get jobs. We get to have our own family and we are successful.

Success in our careers

Many from us have stable jobs, local and abroad. These jobs include film directors, composers, actors and actresses, singers, nurse, police, cook, teacher, fashion designer, photographer, painter, culinary experts, etc. In almost every field or career small or big, strong or weak, good or bad, uneasy or easy, we don’t disappear.

Family and relationships

Yes, there are people who are like us, who have their own “straight” family. But don’t belittle us, we can also provide and do what is right for our own family. Many gay fathers have their own family: with a wife and off-springs. Even though they are gay, their children are still proud of them because they can provide for their family regardless of their sexual orientation.

Now in the relationships, there is a big difference between us homos to the so-called straights. Because we have likes if we compare to straight. We love our same sex; we do care more to our same sex, etc. If the straight people can have happiness, sadness, misunderstandings, mutual understandings, we, also have these feelings. I have experienced this kind of relationship: happy, contented, hard, chaotic, painful, and different.

I am happy because I felt a special kind of spark – fast and uncontrollable beating of the heart, contented because someone is taking care of my heart, and hard because this kind of relationship must be in secret.

I don’t know how I came to be like this. Is it merely because I felt it? Is it because of my environment? Is it an influence from what I see on TV or on the street? It is not my fault why I became like this. This is now where my life runs to. I’m now happy here even though it is hard to accept. I may shed tears of blood but this is me now and nobody can change it for now.

If I could make a wish, I wish to be with that person I love the most forever. Even though we suffer from hardships, sickness and pain, even if the waves of life will change we are still together.

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